Danna
The feast was loud, and sitting next to Prior was soothing. His presence was balancing in some way, and she glad for it. They talked more, laughed. He told stories about home, joked with the other rangers, and found casual ways to touch her without feeling like he was placing a claim on her.
He’d had to stay behind as things broke up, the chieftain wanted to speak with him and Nika and Anders, and she’d assured him she could get back. He’d kissed her hand softly.
It was nice, but as she walked back to her bedchamber, she realized she should have asked him about Annalise. He hadn’t brought it up and she was curious. Why hadn’t he told her about it? She undressed. He’d been engaged to the most powerful woman in the world while she’s been so starving she’d talked herself into being in love with a man who treated her like a convenience.
This was impossible. But he’d said she could choose whatever they were, that she could set the pace. She climbed out of the window of her room onto a landing outside and looked up at the sky.
What do you need, Danna? Seshi’s voice filled my mind.
Nothing, really, she thought back. Nothing you can give at least. Are you safe and comfortable?
We are fine. He sounded grumpy. She laughed. She glanced behind herself seeing Prior having walked into her room. And you?
I am safe. She said softly and walked back into the room. “What are you doing here?” He exhaled and looked at her.
“I wanted to make sure you were comfortable,” he said. “I was busy before, I didn’t get a chance to,” she smiled at him. “What?”
“It’s not the worst excuse I’ve ever heard,” she said. “Cole used to come to my house and ask if my well was full.”
“Did it ever?” He asked.
“I didn’t have a well,” she shrugged. “I got my water in town and carried it back.” He laughed. “You were engaged.” He sighed and leaned against a chair.
“Oh, that.” He looked up from under his hair. This man knew exactly what he was doing. “Who told you?”
“Lady Brea,” she said. He nodded. “That’s why you don’t talk about her. Why the avoided bringing her up?”
“Yes,” he said. “Annalise and I were engaged. We were lovers for about two years, I loved her for almost three before that. She never really loved me back, she tried to, very hard. But she didn’t.” Danna looked at him, he looked pained.
“Do you still love her?” She asked. He sighed.
“That’s a rather more complicated question,” he said. She crossed her arms. “She’s my friend, and my queen. I don’t think of her as an ideal anymore, or as a lover, but I think I always will love her, yes.” She nodded. “It’s been two years before you ask again. She married Prince Eric not long after.”
“When you went hunting dragons?” She asked. He shrugged.
“She joked I’d finally found something more interesting than her,” he said. She smiled. “I wasn’t keeping it a secret, Danna, I planned to talk to you about it before we got to Dovetail.” She said.
“After I was dependent on you?” She said. He exhaled.
“I didn’t mean it that way,” he said, “I meant what I said earlier. This can be whatever you want it to be.” She nodded. “I’ll go,” he went to.
“Wait,” she said, “I’m sorry.” He looked at her. “I can imagine it’s difficult to talk about.” He nodded. “Lady Brea said that she trains good husbands.” He laughed. “So she and the chieftain?”
“Yes,” he nodded. “When we get to Cammadan you’ll hear some people tell exaggerated stories about Annalise’s promiscuity. Most of them are exaggerated. But she doesn’t like to sleep alone.” Danna nodded.
“I see,” she whispered. “She hurt you.” He shrugged.
“She didn’t mean to,” he said. “I’ve lived a life of people meaning to, I can make the distinction.” She stepped closer to him. “Danna,” he whispered.
“Hush,” she murmured, cupped her hands around his face and kissed him softly. He accepted it. “You terrify me.”
“I don’t mean to,” he answered and kissed her back, she let her tongue move over her lips and he opened his mouth and they explored each other. He slid his hands down her arms and pulled her closer. She pulled back. “Do you want me to go?”
“Not really,” she admitted. “But I don’t think I’m ready for you to stay.” He nodded, pressed a kiss to her forehead. “Prior,” she said softly, he turned at the door. “Thank you.”
“Anything, Danna,” he said gently with a smile.
